Always Be My Baby

It's been awhile since every day and everything has felt this right

2011-08-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

Yes, it is been awhile,( excuse me,as i'm breaking my fast on blogging.)

I can promise you i did not purposely signed into blogspot. i was going into my gmail account to verify apple id for the ipod. then bam, it directed to me into blogspot.

memories.

if you've been wondering why i havent been updating, well its because it was intentional.

i made a new blogging site which only few know. its just to write down things when i'm feeling really down and or just letting out things. which is recent and more on how i'm starting fresh starting this year (since high school ended and all)

i realized that some of the things here happened last year and few years back then. its more of a reminder for me now.

so i'm going to leave things here as it is. if i were to even come back here, its probably because i just want to read back old memories. not updating.

so yea, not really updating this anymore. probably never.

I know there's sunshine behind the rain, i know there are good times behind the pain. Can I make a change?

2010-11-16T20:00:00.004+08:00

Woah. I've been listening to Justin Bieber's song, Pray. I know right. I might be insane or something. But I don't know. It made me sad when I listened to it.

Even Justin Bieber wants to change the world... Darn. I can't even get some of the Recess Revo members to think of something to do and school is ending in a few days.

Then I watched God's Chisel.

IMSOSADOHCOZIUSEDTOHAVESOMEBODYTOTALKTOANDCRAPABOUTEVERYSINGLETHINGNOWIMFACINGTHETOUGHESTEXAMWITHOUTYOU

I'm thinking toooo much. I really don't know la...

I'm definitely on my own on this.

i can't tell you what it really is, i can only tell you what it feels like. A few more weeks..

2010-11-02T16:16:00.004+08:00

Till I can change my regrets

Till I can actually be free

Till I can draw again

Till I can decide

Till I say what I want to say

Till I can think whatever I want to think

Till I stop stressing myself

Till every thing to be ok.

I'm sorry. I could not stop myself from writing. I'm thinking too much. Too much to even bring myself to open a book. And all the thoughts has nothing to do with equations, physics, biology or maths. I'm thinking about how unfair things are happening around me. How messed up I can be. How I may not be able to live up to expectations. Regrets, feelings and life. I don't know why I choose today of all days to think about these stuff.

Its exactly 21 days to SPM and I don't really feel bad about using the Internet. I just want to write actually. Plus, I don't think anybody reads my blog so yea, I think its okay to rant and write complete nonsense about feelings and thoughts of a damsel in distress.

I won't complain how unfair the world is though to be honest, as a human, I can't help but to think the world is really being unfair. But I do wonder how people can just walk in my life and just walk out. Or how easy it is for someone just to tell or confess their feelings to a person, not knowing completely what that feeling is. How the absence of the people who are important you is driving you nuts. How uncertain the future really is. How someone you love never really did change. How you were a part of a promise that someone could not keep. How you try to be a good example, a leader, a good person. How you want to be closer to God but your relationship with Him seem so lukewarm. How you keep disappointing yourself. How unmotivated you can be all the time. How indecisive you can be in the most important moments. How can you still hang on for so long and watch as the other move on with life. How you wanted to give another chance but suddenly something happens. How sometimes you burst into tears and not knowing why. How emo songs are suddenly so relative. How you become so impatient. How you're suddenly so scared. How extremely rude you can be. How ungrateful and how unconscious you are. How you can't face a person that you're so used being with. How broken you can be sometimes. How you can hide your frown by smiling.

And while all these thoughts starts overlapping each other,

You wonder how are you going to survive.

i feel like a total brat
i miss landy so much

In a crowded room you're singing but in the inside you sigh. Why I'm bloggin.

2010-10-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

no. I do not have cancer.

I just want everybody to keep Landy in prayers. I just visited her in the hospital and she was still feverish.

Sigh. Get well soon, babe.

"I prefer hearing from you, your OWN voice, rather than from Facebook."

2010-10-17T22:28:00.010+08:00

Theres so many effed up reasons why I dont want to talk to you right now.

"Did I make it so easy for you to walk in and out of my life?"

2010-10-17T22:26:00.001+08:00

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes Sayin' ay-oh, gotta let go. Thankies

2010-10-03T23:39:00.003+08:00

I got facial today.

Facial reminds me of guitar classes. Hmm.

Anyways, thank you to all the people who actually remembered my birthday without the help of Facebook. Oh, the ones that did remember my birthday because of Facebook, thanks too.

Thanks for

the failed plan
giving me moral paper as my present
owl ringsss oh yea baby
a surprise
a smash on my face in my own cake
dinner
the cards
the handbag that everybody chipped in
earrings
cakes
and your love

I love you guys. Can't wait for ASS PEE EM to end. Till then I may be on hiatus.

Unless I have cancer and decide to tell the whole world.

hahahahaahaha. what a funny list.

2010-09-12T04:05:00.004+08:00

Things on my mind when I'm suppose to be sleeping... Rob Scott was good. His wife very prettyyy... Perfect couple. Is it me or cute couples are always singers in church -,-

Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now. HARI RAYA w00t!

2010-09-12T03:40:00.006+08:00

Was suppose to go to Zaidah's open house but I had to attend church stuff :) So sorry zeek. I really wanted some raya paus. Or raya packets. Monneh makes me happy. Abit la. Lol.

I had one for the saddest shopping spree ever on Thursday night. I studied Addmaths, completed the work that my tuition teacher gave and studied more Addmaths. Tryna figure out some curves [aint got no curves like mine bebeh!] and then finally mum said she would bring us all to shop. Well it was only me la. lol.

But of all places, mum choose Wisma Merdeka. Which by then, all the human race should know that Wisma Merdeka would have already closed their shops. But my mum insisted and I unconsciously agreed. Nyah. Worse. Decision. Ever.

Because I came empty handed. With only the sight of pilaks in my mind la.Which is ew. And the fact that i was not made for skinny jeans. Even the biggest size in the boutique wouldnt go through my sorry ass. Aish. After trying like 5 pairs? I gave up.

I guess they were not meant for me eh?

Saturday improved though. Bought shoes, dresses and bangles. Wohoo!

I guess thats pretty much it. Christine Lee is over at my house for no apparent reason. She just wants to sleep over all of the sudden. Kids. Keeping me awake until this hour, probably thats why i decided to blog.

Oh wells.

Happy Raaaayyaa people :)

2010-09-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

uhm, just so u know logan. u kinda look hot in blue ray HD

But darlin' you are the exception.Oh maannn...

2010-09-06T23:44:00.003+08:00

My teeth are so freaking painful. This is what i get after not wanting to wear retainers for like.. a month. I dont like them bah. ><

UHM, kinda kuyaked during tuition.

me landay

so, are you wish him happy birthday?
pfft what for, he dint wish me happy birthday
hmm
you wish him la
eee, dont want! he didnt wish me happy birthday
but.. your birthday-
realizes dat i kuyak
wait..i havent had my birthday yet
laughs

well, it was sorta funny when we both said it. ah whateves. its not like anybody will remember it anyways. its during our trials for goodness sake. pfft.

Anywho, last week was good. Planning and managing was not easy. And screaming to people in chruch is waaayyyy different then doing it to school people. I guess planning picture day was much more easier than, uhm, Loaf Story. Haha. But everything turned out awesome la. So yea, last week was good, minus the time watching Big Jo leave and receiving terrible exam results. And the minimum amount of sleep that my cell group had because we all had to stay up till 4am in my house doing a scrap book for Big Jo :( so many pictureeessss. make me wanna cry only.

So today is the start of my two weeks holiday. And just an hour ago my mum warned me to be serious and reminded me how much time left for me to study. Thanks, mum.

Guess I'll be spending my holies studying and watch more people leave.

btw, katy perry, you are so awesome you made a song about E.T.

ihopeyoudontleavetoo

Do you remember the nights we made our way dreaming? September Succkas

2010-09-01T22:53:00.002+08:00

WARNING: the below conversation may be offensive to some of you emotional and cranky people.

wilpred janie me

during chem tuition

teacher, what did u do after form 5?
hah, form 6 la
really?
ya, tapi susah la
isnt that like.. suicide
ignored
susah la.
teacher u dint apply for matriks?
hah, memang apply la. itu yang saya mau pigi
then?
kena reject.
uh..why?
sbab that time they pentingkan the malays first, bila sia dapat tu surat kan dia bilang harap maaf, matiks hanya untuk malays.
uh.. looks at azimah
tapi skarang ok sudalah,
he looks at jane, eva, the twin, starts pointing them
ahh, ini ada chance sbab bumi kan? ah, ini ada, ini ada chance, ini pun ada,
looks at me
AH ini TIADA LA,
looks at landay
Ah, ini pun tiada
WTF TEACHER WHY
sebab india.

WTF IM KADAZANDUSUN BAH.

September is going to suck. I can tell.

2010-08-29T02:27:00.002+08:00

Best friends to lovers :)

its two thirty in the morning and i just finished watching Valentines Day.

It's not that I don't want to be with you but you only wanted me, the way you wanted me. Final

2010-08-28T23:42:00.003+08:00

I'm in kampung now.

Its cold and cosy here.

And the best thing is, theres Internet connection :) Plus, exams are finally over for now. A sucky fact that I just got to know that our results will be posted up at the board. You know, publicly. And I did few papers by faith. Effortless. I know that isnt right and all but I subjects like Bio and Sej needs alot of man power and brain cells.

And yes, I regretted not starting early.

Anywhoes, I finally get to blog.

I freaked out during lit because there was one question that wanted to make me scream. But in the end all I could do was... not doing it. :( And one of exam days, the other forms started to nominate and electing new leaders for their clubs. It was saddening. I could hear people shouting names and screaming who they wanted to be their leader.

It was a sign that everything is going to end soon.

And I dont even know who to choose to be the next leader for the prayer/revo group. Its like.. I dont want to let go. HAHA. But I have to anyways.

God blessed the group and now its really growing. We even did our first Recess Revo after 3 months since our last one?? And it went really great.

We're now about 15? And next week we're gonna do our next RR :) :)

So yea, I basically have no absolute life during exams. And probably will not have one until SPM ends. Im caged. Unless I give a reallyy reallyyy good reason why I should be set free for awhile. Like interact install night. Wooo.. I want to go for that one. Heard that the themes gonna be Masquerade. Thats why I posted up a picture of a girl with awesome butterfly like mask. SO PRETTY.

I always wanted to wear those. And wear pretty dresses.

I always wanted to go to fancy parties.

i'm all strong up my heart is fine, i just can't get you off my mind

2010-08-26T22:39:00.004+08:00

things on my mind when i should be studying.

don't have to try, its so easy who needs to pretend? last paper shiz

2010-08-26T22:30:00.002+08:00

If you heat a 50kg solid Emery with 3 papers of chemistry test. What will the observation be?

A. Tears of acid are prodiced
B. The papers of the chemistry test has a 0% mark on it
C. Emery explodes
D. A "fffffuuuucccc-" soud is heard.

But nothing beats physics paper 2 by the great Wong Fuuu. Last paper tomorrow

2010-08-21T23:44:00.005+08:00

Weeeeee. I know I cant eat this but yea. I'm still glad that I have it. lol

haha. actually cried after gave u away. lol
but maybe it was because i was expecting a sincere apology.
and no. im not ok.

guess people really dont take me seriously, huh?

Your hands that shaped the world, their holding me.

2010-08-21T13:44:00.003+08:00

Have I posted this? oh well.

When goodbyes were meant until tomorrow.

Everybody is leaving slowly. But impertinent people remain unchanged and permanent

2010-08-09T17:46:00.003+08:00

People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out, Real bad

2010-08-09T16:37:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh. Thanks. Real great.

Period cramps? Don't really want it right now.

I hate it when I get periods. I JUST HAVE TO RANT.

I just need to let it out you know?

And get all pissed off over stupid things. Bitchy. And it is all because of period.

Its like the hormones rages by itself.

And yes, I'm still pissed.

And I don't even think that you'll have the decency to apologize. Because of whatever ego you have there.

And I got pissed bout the noise today.

And how unmotivated of me to study.

And I don't have a permanent maid.

I mean, I HAD TO TALK TWO LANGUAGES TODAY TO TWO DIFFERENT TYPE OF MAIDS.

At least the malay speaking one was better la. The english speaking one makes me wanna rip the shit out of my brains. i cant talk to her and shes 67. at least shes not cranky, thank god

But can keep only one so the english speaking one is staying. Good lord.

I need not to be emotional. Not now.

I AM FABULOUS AND I WILL NOT SUCCUMB TO MY WEAKNESSES.

iwanttocrybreakdownscreamkickslapbiteeatshout
PWOIUN9B382fak

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee, just the thought of you can drive me wild. C'mon, make me smile.

2010-08-03T18:35:00.002+08:00

Just a few hours ago I felt extremely lonely.

Because my maid that worked with us for 7 years left for marriage. Argh. I don't blame her. Really. She just became so close to us that it feels so weird not having her around anymore. When I was on my home from school I told my dad that I didn't want to go home. Because I know how lonely and how quiet it will be. Sigh. And the strangest thing was that I didn't cry. Normally I would.

The only explanation to it is that I was still affected by the trip had to Dandun, Pitas.

I was still so content with joy.

Eventhough I'm all sick and feverish, I still cant get that trip outta my head. It was just so awesome. I actually wanted to choose Perdana Camp over Pitas trip but then I just had the urge to just choose Pitas. Because I'VE been waiting for so long to serve. And I might not be able to do it again for a very long time.

The trip was awesome. When Alvin told me I was teaching I was like (YES,KIDS). Not to be a pedo or anything but I seriously love kids. Hahaha. I love messing with them and just making them smile. Of course too much of it will lead them to being destructive. Haha. But the kids in Pitas were different. They were more, uhm, more I don't know. Interesting. They get easily amused and they get easily attached and stuff. They make you feel like you've done something great in them. And you feel like you're somebody. And each time they give you their attention, you feel...WOW. Hahaha. I'm so weird. Oh well, I loveeee them.

We shall go back there again ask them

"Ingat lagi ka kami?"

Sama F.M bah , Chee!

Come to think of it. I don't think I'll be doing alot anymore. Especially the things that I love doing.

Hanging out with friends in school, acting, taking school photos, acting, being a loser in class, annoy everyone I go in school, go to places in kk, acting.

Basically. Things change..

Exhibit A : Kakak Betty has gone and I'm trying my best to do the chores around the house evethough I'm sick.

Such a big change.

I don't know how much of changes can I take. I just have grown so close with the things around me here. I've made so many memories and thought of awesome pawesome things that involve them but I don't think it will stay that way. Because things change.

And sometime changes are good. Or bad.

I believe some changes are good. I've seen people leave and slowly growing into someone better. And perhaps they may come back, better then before.

Some are bad. So bad even I, myself was affected by it though its not me who endure the changes but somehow, I get it too.

Anyhow, I'm a worrier. I don't know where I get it from. I don't know how I got it.

And sometimes things don't go the way it is planned, especially if its planned by you.

Alvin told me something during Dandun.

And it somehow calmed my brain from going hair wired for SPM.

Jeremiah 29:11

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

He didn't tell me that verse la but somehow that verse summarize everything he said to me.

So no matter what choices you make, you know I'll support you. Just remember that we're accountability partnerss. And no matter where you may be, either near or far to the other side of the planet, I just want you to keep up your faith and let everything you endure now will make you stronger so no matter what happens out there, you can overcome them easily. With the help of the awesome pawesome God. And remember this ah, the first thing you step into a new place. FIND A CHURCH. Godly people to hang out and enjoy life. Find quiet time with the Lord and serve Him! Muah.

2010-07-24T03:18:00.002+08:00

Did you know...since I'm not allowed to go out and shop and all.... I'm buying cheap china stuffs from catalogues?
God Bless my soul.

I'm up for God's prescription!

saying that you love me, lying tongues are clumsy. it's about time

2010-07-24T02:56:00.004+08:00

that i should really stress up for SPM.

And Yes.

I shall not update as often as I always do now. So bear with it.

I can't believe the teachers are being so.. Unreasonable. How could they not understand our absence in class is obviously because of them? We have posts, and they give us works. They want us to be responsible, so we finish them. They give a deadline, we try our best to complete their work. And what do we get? A kick in the face for getting bad grades and not being in class.

Its not like we wanted to do the jobs for them anyways.

Why dont do youself a favor and stop bugging the form 5s, eh?

But no. Guess what, Emery still has to do the photoshoot for 2010's Magazine next week.

Oh nevermind. Just don't poke you fingers at me if I'm not in class. Try poking the teacher who wont leave me alone.

Prayer meeting went well, at least. Made me feel better to just talk to the members about their week and stuff. Prayed for few of them and still brainstorming for RR. As usual, Vadee prayers will always humour us. And she will always end up saying, " This is a prayer meeting! You're not suppose to laugh!" That old hag. HAHA. Just hope its sincere :P

Anyways, while church is starting up with the Revival Series I just hope our school will soon have one too. A revival I mean.

Ohhh lookkkiieeee

HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN?! KENDALL KARDASHIAN IS 14 AND SHE HAS BIGGER BOOBS THAN I DO.

Maybe I should request a prayer for next week....HHHMMMMM

ICANTWAITFORMISSIONTRIP.

stuhdeh, emeh

I AM NOT FLAT BAH

2010-07-06T01:43:00.001+08:00

When all the sun's still rising and we don't care. Make my day

2010-07-06T01:34:00.004+08:00

You know. I love you guys. Whoever that showed up that for the concert. I wanted to take photos with you guys but yea. Kinda forgot. Oh well. I was like sooooo happyyyyy. Because of you guys, I performed like.. theres no tomorrow :) YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH YOUR PRESENCE MEAN TO MEEEE

Cried la when I heard this song. But it made my day :D

hahahaa. he made my day too XD hes such a sore loser with his pink gay handcuffs

few for months to SPM. Somebody motivate me like shizz me please!

tsamina mina eh eh waka waka eh eh

2010-07-02T21:18:00.003+08:00

Exhausted.

I love what I've been doing this week.

Recording songs.

Practice.

~~Skipping classes~~

Recesses Revo

Sunday's performances.

We'll see how things end up.

Sucky or awesome.

It is possible for it to be awesome.

Since I'm there and all.

:P

KIRANE LOOK! M.A.D FRONT COVER!

PFFT. sepa la tu

See ya there

but really. i doubt i'll see you anyways.

Vusak and vadee during prayer meeting:

PRAY FOR WORLD CUP!!!!

-.-

I would kill myself right now. Resurrect. And then kill myslef again.

2010-06-28T01:15:00.001+08:00

- Adapted from Melvyn Lim

If you ever catch me doing, saying, feeling or thinking something stupid. Blame it on period.

2010-06-28T00:42:00.002+08:00

you make me wanna say oh oh oh oh oh oh ma gosh. Shizz

2010-06-26T02:49:00.004+08:00

I owe teachers works. And I've studying lately. Like Chem and what not.

Then theres the bloody musical that everybody doesn't give a shizz about.

If they're not serious.

Then so am i.

You don't show any co operation.

Then you don't deserve ours.

I hope you rot on stage

I'm hungry.

Have you ever felt like someone... stole a close friend of yours before? Ok fine, maybe they dont belong to you. But... never mind. Auh forget it.

I've been feeling abit left out lately. Its pissing me off.

Everything pisses me off nowadays.

Corn, you know i love you too, not only landay

Cause shawty is a eenie meenie miney mo lover. Schools back and its black.

2010-06-21T00:14:00.003+08:00

The holidays treated me well I guess. Not really what I expected but yea. Oh well. Now school is about to start in about 6 hours... And I dont think I'm even ready to hit the books yet. So it was an ok holiday. From scout camps to youth camps to school work. Haha, pretty tiring but I enjoyed. Enjoyed the tortur- i mean, disciplining kids, feeling the presence of the Lord and finishing tasks.
But I didn't really accomplish my duties as a student though. been neglecting my books and spoiled my self by just being lazy when I had the time to actually study. ngeh. So i feel bad.

Anyways, too late. Gotta face reality now and face the horror of the teachers' faces when we all get back to school.

And my parents are really getting weirder. Esp at the dinner table

Mum/me/dad

you know at servay mum sniffed the fishes

gives a look

i mean she literally bent down to sniff it. i was like mum dont do that in servay

budak kampung betul

you have to do that to know

u could at least brought the fish to you to smell it

yea, my mum really sniffed the fish and the fish seller was kinda amused by it. and yea, weirdness doesn't stop there

you know mummy guessed brazil will win for the world cup, its for the servay thingy

uh not interested

weird la guys dont like football

i used to bah. now no more

gay la you.

o,o

WHAT DID THE RETREAT DONE TO THEM?!

Nah. Love them all to bits.

Happy Belated daddys day!

you have exactly 10 seconds to tell me what is so RIGHT about this picture :D

eh, just for fun :P

i'll update if i make it through school week :)

saya sayang kamu semuuaaaa

2010-06-08T00:53:00.001+08:00

if we meet, we hug kays?

I knew I wouldn't forget you and so I went and let you blow my mind

2010-06-08T00:10:00.004+08:00

i'm running out of things to blog about.

lets see. how about we start about my day since the first day of holiday.

Monday, skipped tuition at night just to pack for scouts camp.
Next day was tiring, had to clean up the place and carry some stuff.
Woke up at 7 ish to get ready for the juniors to register.
Did briefing, bit of games.
And lotsa stuff again la.

And its not a happy happy camp.
Its scout camp.
Where things get dirty and its just torture everywhere.
The first night was interesting, woke the kids up at 1Am, blind-folded them and led them out to different places of the school.
Told them to only follow the person who taps at your right shoulder 3 times.
More/less or other things they do, do not follow.
I tell you, they are emotional kids.
There were scearming and shouting made by boths us, Service-cos and the juniors.

It was fun la. Learned alot bout being more responsible and being more crazy.
Loved it, because I seriously could make a fool out of myself.
But at the same time, I was dissapointed, Because some of the Service-cos did not give much co-operation. They did not respect the troop leader.
And some just did not help around.
Woke up late.
Did not behave.

Oh well,
whatever happens,
I hopoe that the scouts will have good future leader though.

OMG, blogging about my days are so boring.
Forget about it.
Lets talk about Sunday because its a good Sunday.

Well, Sunday, I was pretty much happy you know. I dont know why
Maybe coz banyak makan sugar bah
I was hungry during service and I could find any food.
Then after service, I wanted to get biscuits but there were only like few left and this kid was like hogging it.
So I just had like... half of a biscuit. Darn.
Anyways, you theres this app on the iPhone which is SO AWESOME.
I don't know what its called but its so awesome.
Its like this red thing, kinda sounds like Elmo, but if you touch it kan, it get ticklish
And you could like stretch or something.
AND THIS IS THE BEST PART,
It repeats everything you say to it perfectly.
OMGOMNGOMGOMGOMG. AWESOME! I couldnt stop playing with it.
First I thought it was Big Jo's iPhone but yea, it wasnt... it was Eric's.

Lunch on that day was interesting because it was at Suria Food Court.
The view was niceeeee.
Then Jon and Clement kept dragging me to the car show.
Firstly, DO NOT DRAG ME TO PLACES WHERE I HAVE NO INTEREST OF.
I do not study cars, guys. So you know I'll be damn bored.
But eventually, I followed.
And David Lee joined.
Then bored bored bored.
THEN I SAW THIS PRETTY YELLOOWWW CAR.
Its a Lotus I think.
Thaty what it said on the car.
So yea.
Lotus cars are pretty.

i'm bored. i think you can tell since Im telling you stuff you dont giv a damn about.

my mum bought a new lappie and it has a webcam!
you know, my dad has been very...weird after the Men's Breakthrough Camp.
Wonder what they did to him,

awwwww

heh.

you know what, i'll start randomly posting up stuff now.
so yea.

Cause shawty is a eenie meenie miney mo lover

2010-06-08T00:00:00.003+08:00

do you know what is this? do you know how much i hate being this?
i'm tired of trying so hard to get your attention when you just see me as this.

2010-06-07T01:59:00.000+08:00

facebook is so distracting.

gotta stop it.

You gotta pull yourself back together, give it one more shot.

2010-06-07T01:37:00.004+08:00

today-

i mean yesterday was good.

it was awesome.

but i don't think i can do it.

its not the same.

damn it

Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight. Miss me will ya?

2010-05-31T19:30:00.004+08:00

Finally. Finally I feel better.

I feel better:

After school days.
After settling some stuff.
Ranting to people.
Being there for people I care for.
Spending time with my awesome weird headache family.
Having fun with crazy friends.
Going to church.
After crying.
Smiling to everybody.
Receiving lotsa hugs from you you and you.
Giving tons of hugs to you you and you.
Being stalked. HAHA.
Doing more quiet time with the Lord.
Playing Ronnie.
Playing nerd's O2Jam
Listening to oldie music.
dancing like a monkey

I'm looking forward to the holidays.
Bring me out ya? :)

Oh wait, I realize that I'll be really packed up during the holidays.
Going for Scouts Camp tomorrow for about four days.
Then theres Youth Camp.
Then theres SRM stuff.

But please, I'm begging you, bring me out. Lets hang out before my freedom ends.

so, will you miss me?

And I'm on my way to believing,Oh, And I'm on my way to believing. Suck.

2010-05-24T17:55:00.004+08:00

IT SEMI SHRANK YESTERDAY.
IT EFFKING SHRANK. MY BALL SHRANK.
But it got a whole bigger today.

Why don't I get a break even after exams?
Can't I get a real holiday?
Why when one thing ends, another thing starts?
Why is my life full of of of...

I know my responsibilities had grown.

Sucks being a leader especially when you know you suck at it.
i can't do this God.
i need You right at this moment.

period, you give me no reason but to swear at everything

Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat? No, no, no, you know it will always just be me. Hell yea.

2010-05-17T14:52:00.003+08:00

Oh oh. Check out the new today :(

Crash Claims Singaporean woman and another.

Thats the headline name in Daily Express newspaperrr... I saw the after-math of the accident. Very tragic :( Near Sutera after I finished church-lunch. Siigghhhh. The name of the dead woman bah. Kesian kau Cat :P

Somebody turned 16 today :D :D
And somebody is going to be 18 tomorrow :D :D

SO MANY MAY BABIES!

Okay, I really need to go study :X

but before that, I'll entertain you with randomness.
(i would like to put you in too kim, but, nah. maybe next time XD)

Stuppidddddd.
KICK ASS QUOTE AYE, CAT?

o.O its kinda sweet..but disturbing at the same time

make this come true, God.

fireworrrkkssss

HAAHAHAHAH. a day before competition :) can you spot the sad elisa?

HAAHAHHAHAHA.

And you could see the melody that's been calling out your wrongs. Dance, gits.

2010-05-17T14:27:00.002+08:00

Oh yea. Baby. Doesn't this sexy advert makes you wanna dance?
I mean siapa juga yang make bah XD

So yea, text me. GO FOR THIS AWESOME DANCE CLASS.
you don't have to think if you can dance. just dance.

Especially you, Corn.

I will be desperately awaiting but my tongue won't fall apart. You wait or you don't

2010-05-17T14:11:00.003+08:00

Yes, I deactivated my account.

Its taking too much of my time during exam.
And I completely flunk my addmaths and my physics paper today. How awesome is that.
Uh, lets just say there are just few things I'm not ready to see in ~~Facebook~~ yet.
Even if you might think its okay.
And my reasons are total nonsense.
So yea, wait if you must, for my return.
Since you know, everything around seems to revolve around waiting.
Waiting for something to happen, to end, to start.
Its up to you whether its worth waiting or not.
I recently found out that there is something I still find worth waiting for.
We'll see.

So you know how to contact me, aye? :)

I'm speeding by the place where I met you, for the ninety seventh time, tonight. Happy happy happy Mama's Day

2010-05-09T15:09:00.002+08:00

Happy Mama's Day to all mam's out there.
Emery loves all of you :D

Anyways,

Few of us, girls, decided to dress up in dresses. And everybody looked awesome. I wanted to take picture with all of em' but they all disappeared after service. So I was like, wtf? Where did everybody go? Was kinda a loner walking aimlessly around church and realized that everybody was doing their fun-raising thingy. Which my cell haven't start doing anything yet. That explains why I was walking doing nothing. Haha. But then Debs, me and Big Jo finally like planned something. So yea, wait la. Got that.

The cupcakes was like, finish when I wanted to go buy it. So I ate bit from Banjo. AHAHA. NICE OH. Then theres the photo shooting thingy. Mum was being, loud. HAHA. Nvm about that. All in all, it was good la.

Yesterday was so saddening oh. All my cell members couldn't come. I wanted to not go too but I choose to come anyways. Then I was like the only one there for Prayer Meeting. Come on la people, where are you? Actually, I came early. Like six o'clock kind of early, then I decided to just walk around Sutera and stayed at a spot where it was good sunset view. The sunset was hidden. By the dumb clouds. I had a hard time getting to the spot because there was like puddles everywhere. Nice place to watch the sunset but yea, kinda blocked by the clouds now. So I decided to listen to music and just sit a little longer. I felt happy. I don't know why but yea, I did. I should go there more often, esp when theres no after rain effect or something.

So after what felt like forever, I left for prayer then invaded Eleni's cell. SINCE MY CELL MEMBERS WEREN'T THERE AND ALL. Pfft. Then everybody was high. WEEE. I practically singing to get water and toilet. HAHA. Happy bah.

But I wished that feeling stayed. Because I couldn't help but to think about how ironic things have become now. Seriously. The thought I thought wasn't the thought I thought, I thought.

:(

Maybe I just want things go normally. Not ignorantly. Yea, Sorry.
And mum, you know I love you.

"I would like to start over, please"

2010-05-04T16:48:00.001+08:00

Could this be out of line? To say you're the only one breaking me down like this. Supposedly.

2010-05-04T16:34:00.005+08:00

I know I'm suppose to be studying now.

BUT I CAN'T.

This is all landay's fault i tell you.

And this is also all your fault corn.

Because of YOU, Corn, your beloved pet wrote an emo suicidal love story.
No its not romeo and juliet

And it drove me crazy. Crazy I tell you.

I'm sorry laura, wasted your credit to call me just wake me up though I didn't sleep. AT ALL.

jxdic723u5b8q27695b674890u675n9078gjgug

Quit crying your eyes out, baby come one. hug.

2010-05-02T19:29:00.002+08:00

yes. especially you there.
with the pretty little smile and a pair of sad eyes.

You said between your smile and regrets "Don't say it's over." Ball of emotions

2010-05-02T18:43:00.005+08:00

F.O.B. Such comforting songs you have. why must be apart after all the good songs you've done?

When I'm around you I'm predictable cause I believe in loving you at first sight. Cutting edge

2010-05-02T18:17:00.002+08:00

Hello, my name is Emery.

I want to change the world.

Am I crazy? Stupid?

Well, yes. Yes I am.

But crazy stupid people are the best.

I was emotional. I was down. Especially this week. And the week before. Wait, this whole month actually. Wait, was? Maybe still is.

Anyways, cutting edge was good. Really good. But I don't know, I felt tired like all the time. If I wasn't I would be abit ecstatic. But I felt tired. Really tired. Tired like, no matter how long I sleep, all I feel is tired. And the tired is something I don't want. I wish it was some awesome tired but it's not. Its some kind of tiredness which you want it to end. Like a frequency in your ear you want to stop. Or an aching heart you want to heal.

Vusak came in the morning and followed jon, clement and few of the others for lunch.

AND I TELL YOU VUSAK WAS SCREAMING LIKE WTF.

She is now traumatized by jonny's driving. Poor vusak.

Then Saturday came, vusak, mir, janice was there. WEEEEEE. And we had an awesome night.

Can't wait for school. Want to play with DA VAULT. And see the rest of my darlings and RECESS REVOLUTION!!!!

Let's get this party started baby.

thankkkk youuuuuu

Money money money, it's so funny, in a rich man's world. Oh you're so contagious

2010-05-02T17:57:00.005+08:00

LANDAY, NERD, ZEEK, AUDREY, VADEE♥, VUSAK, MARIA, FREDIE, GABBY, JANICE, SONIA, CHAN, ELISA, KIKIRSTICK

I love you guys oh. Only now I feel ecstatic. After looking through the pictures and the stupidity that we've been through, I realized just how awesome our team was. Though I didn't get that damn award, i hope you guys still love me. damn you liyana

AND ALSO CORN, TIA ♥, AND FISHBALLLLLLL, AND WHO EVER THAT CAME TO HELP AND SUPPORT US

Yes, i fainted, bohhooo. But let's just say i ter jatuh when i tried sitting down.

and and and and

CONGRATS LA SALLE. ♥

YOU GUYS WERE AWESOMEEEE.. ESP Joshieeeee hahaha

Even my destructive ball of emotions is getting better. except for one thing that is still bugging me. siigghhhh

oh well, we rock.

you

If we crawl, Till we can walk again ,Then we'll run until we're strong enough to jump. Nervous breakdown

2010-04-28T15:46:00.002+08:00

Okay I can do this. Right?

I mean its not like its tomorrow or something. Pffft.

Ok fine it is. Shizzaw... I'm so nervous.

GASP.

Sleeping over at nerd's tonight. Hope everything goes smoothly and according to plan.

Pray.

thanks to johannaaaaaaaaa for the picture

Oh gawsh. Not yet, Emery. Not yet.

Let's crawl. Back to love.

Something always brings me back to, it never takes too long. a reason to smile

2010-04-25T16:28:00.003+08:00

I finally got the guts to actually to talk someone who I always wanted to talk too. And IT FELT GOOD. haha.

I've been reminiscing the younger days. Haha. Because I had nothing else to think about. And I'm amazed. How things turn out now. Like liking someone and they looked really really ugly when they were younger. And how very very destructive I was. My scars tell stories. Or how I owned alot of pets now they're all buried at my backyard., uh some of them..

Seems different now eh?

Those ugly kids I used to like had magically turned...good looking. How I love the outdoors and start scar-ing myself but now I'm glued to the computer more. That now, I own absolutely no animals in my house.

oh!

I was watching the tv that day, suddenly, the WIGGLES advert came up.

And I became ecstatic. HAHAHAHA

They're coming to Malaysia. That is so awesome. I listen to them when I was a kid.

they looked, old though.

Anyways, I would love to live as a child for like a day or something. At least all my smiles are real and my sadness are easy to get over with. I don't have to use my brain cells so much most of the time I'm doing something. If i were to do anything wrong, no one could really blame me. I'm just a kid.

Oh well. Guess I just have to live this one.

And I'm trying my best to appreciate and love what I have now. Especially my family and friends.
Just incase things change.

you think why i love to take pictures so much? you think coz im vain ka?

is it so hard to see how much I don't want to lose any memory of you guys?
or am i not trying harder?
i just want to see our pictures on my wall when i become ancient or something.
okay mayb when i turn 60

Oh, but I'm not being emo here. no no. I'm just having a lil nervous breakdown. 4 days.
4 freaking days. And then it'll be over.

or maybe not?

You know I'll do anything to relive that moments again.
its like i can't bare to lose you

So please don't forget to call me just to let me know you're doing okay. it was me.

2010-04-16T21:44:00.004+08:00

i got the quote from tumblr and picture from DA

oh my. my mum wants to go for the PIBG thingy

and i made my own passport picture. what are school pinafores are for? :D

i'm so unbloodybelievably awesome.

oh oh. nah, one of the pictures i took to make everyone's day.

malas mau edit haha.

i feel so loved :D

I don't know why I even try, 'cause lately you're always out with other guys. More like girls.

2010-04-08T23:58:00.005+08:00

oh. if only if only.

We got our yellow papers back. You know, where they print your ugly marks on and expect your parents to sign it. So yea, I didn't bother to look through it...until i realize I only failed a subject.

Amazing huh?

But guess what I failed?

Literature.

Yes, I know. I'm an ass. Nobody fails Lit. And this amazing person just did.

Three cheers for the ass for being..well.. an ass.

peffet

i want her swimsuit. but my thighs would definitely reject it. since its fat and all

oh, taking pictures for Majlis Anugerah Kecermelang later on.
and i'm still awake.thinking

if tumblr was a person. i'll shot him..or her.

for making quotes..that make me think.

Hard.

sorry sorry sorry so so so ry. Ew.

2010-04-04T23:06:00.002+08:00

I CANT STAND IT OH. I wana use i wana use i wana use i wana use. WHY BHA! Why?! Why?! Why bha u so cute huh?! At least if u were ugly i could stil move an inch forward. Gosh. Darn u! Darn u! Darn u things from the past. Eat my socks. Nyahahahaha! Garlics. I think i need to watch Peter Pan again. *twitches* i mean. I cant do this. U knw what. Do whatever u want. I'l just stare at u frm a far. U knw? Like I used to. Ma gawsh. Shut up emeh. Ur going blonkerz over a software. Go back reading bout hormones on page 89. Someone please tel me somethng dat make sense to me right now.

i tried, but i cant see what you see. Kegatalan.

2010-04-04T22:52:00.002+08:00

my hands are itching to use the computer. I want to use photoshop! Please please! Huhuhuhu. But I have to study. Darn. Good thing its Bio. Oh yeaaa *starts twitching* I mean...

you don't even have to try. Yo.

2010-04-04T15:40:00.001+08:00

i thnk everybody knows i'm a little indicisive git. I don't know what to do next. Dnt knw wat to wear, where to eat. Either that, i'l just go with the flow. And get screwd for doing so because i had beter choice to choose from. I wish i wasn't like this. I wish i someone who doesnt have problems in choosing. I want that, this, yes, no, I don't know. If only there was a word for both yes n no. Like, yo. Haha. Oh God. I'm just going according what You've planned for me. I want to be this 10 year old again. Crushing over nerds her age who doesnt even have to try to make her go gaga. Wel. Not literaly.. Bt u knw wat i mean. I just wana b a kid again. Mayb i need someone who sees me at my worse state..sees me in my indicisive moments..sees me in my kuyak times. And stil say, 'hey its ok. I stil think ur the best'

Would you believe me if i said that we are the ones who can make a change in this world today? Press on.

2010-04-04T00:18:00.003+08:00

i'm ready. Ready to be a change. Corny as it sounds, i'm gona dream on and press on ;) i knw somethng was gona happen tonight. Oh ma gawsh! I jst typed a whole post and my dumb phone jst stopped working. Gumballs. Im so lazy to rewrite. Heres a shorter ver of it, school was better. My dad sudenlly got pissd n ruined my gaylord mood. Happy easter. Go go colect dumbass eggs from a reptile bunny or take some1 who died for u seriously. And let the hunt begin. Nt for eggs but for somethng magical i just made. Gud luck.

He says the all the right thing at exactly the right time but he means nothing to you. Coz you still do.

2010-03-22T00:23:00.001+08:00

I'M NOT READY FOR SCHOOL. Sigh.

Just tryin' to find my way back home but the old me's dead and gone. Much-ness.

2010-03-19T20:08:00.003+08:00

thissongmakesmewannadancesobad.

i think its been awhile since i last crapped about my week. Usually its all this nonsense about being emo and your eyes probably hurts because of the non existing "enter" button on my phone.

Well guess what?! I FOUND IT!

Nah. I'm just using the computer now. Since I don't have my own laptop. Sad.

Of course this month has been extremely emotional. Urgh. No, I'm not having my period, its just the stuff the schools been giving me. You know? Studies, results and people? Yea, those stuff.

If I said I hate it.

Then I wouldn't miss it when I leave school later.

But I think I will. So I shall not hate it but will dislike it at some moments. Because knowing me, I will really miss high school. So yea.

Despite the horrible moments I've been mourning over, this week though, I feel much much better.

Been bonding with the Team. Love them to bits.

Then there's my dad, since my calculative mum and my monstrous little sister are away in Aussie, my dad has been spoiling me. I love it. I really do. But all good things end eventually right? So I'm living every second of my "spoiled" moment (I'm not saying I am spoiled) . Because when my mum comes back...thats when all good things end. Which is tomorrow. Darn.

So yea, this week was good so far la.

The only thing that practically sucks right now is that I'm not done with homeworks and I shall undergo stress with books again and painful boring yet informative nagging of the teachers because I have two days left off free-ness. Darn.

Oh, caught the white rat. Since my dad's ignorance is so strong, it was hardly alive when I got back from youth,last Saturday night. Then the next day, it was barely breathing. Even when we set it free, it didn't run away. It just crawled helplessly and stop. So my dad suggested if he just stuff it in the plastic and throw it away. I got ze pictureee. Its so white oh. Sayang it died :(

Tumblr? Maybe. Still deciding. I have my reasons :)

OMG. KIDS. IN MY COMPUTER ROOM!

I give them candy, they give me destruction and break dancings on the floor . This is what I get for taking care of kids during Cell Group in my house.

Oh, before that, I had such a very disturbing conversation

DadMe

We should just leave the toilet door open la

why?

the people later come for Cell Group dunno where toilet woh

can bah, its so easy. they can tell the difference

all the doors look alike, some people won't know

then we should go get a "Toilet" sign

aiya no need la

then what?

just put a picture of a banana and an apple.

silence

OMG. ew.

I think he could see through everything but my heart. Nice words for nice people.

2010-03-18T22:00:00.007+08:00

for the vadee

for the tia

for the landay

For the kikir. Not to make you feel bad or anything. Your dog loves u ba

and for corn. i dont know why. but yea

for myself and everybody i love else out there. esp nerd since shes out of town and all :P

why? because u all mean that much to me.

And the hardest part is letting go of the nights we shared. Butterflies.

2010-03-16T19:05:00.004+08:00

Stomach, meet butterflies. Coz u deep down, somewhere there, u didn't want it to happen. You wanted it to be permenant. Everything happens for a reason. So take a deep breath, girl. Its your turn to feel free. When you thought you did, you actually still needed time. Lots and lots of time. I don't know why, why, why. Oh boy, you got me staying up thinking again. You, you, you. You gotta stop being the first thing on my mind. Starting tomorrow morning. Urgh. I'm goin into typography.

when everything's made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am. Its pretty ugly.

2010-03-15T00:25:00.004+08:00

its ok to look ugly when you cry because you were never really that attractive in the first place. I love my dad for making me feel better. I was so close to get things out of my mind. It sucks to lose the passion u once had. It sucks to fail in something u never did. It sucks to feel how people take their SPM results. It sucks to know its gonna be harder now. It sucks that you cant care. You can notice the sawdust in my eye but not the plank in urs? I cant help but to think about it. Its like cancer to me. I tried. And I really cant. Maybe things will be better. Maybe.

Baby don't worry, you'll be my only even when the sky is falling down. Are you down?

2010-03-09T18:05:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry you guys had to see that. I'm so used to do it without anybody noticing. I'll hold it a lil bit longer next time. If only i had someone who i can scream, shout, rant at and hear me at my weakest moments. Other then that, it would really cheer me up if it rained. Maybe i should get the drama team to do the rain dance. Hmm.

His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes, and if you asked me if i love him. I'd lie.

2010-03-01T00:05:00.006+08:00

Small kids are so cute and interesting lil creatures. Destructive yes, but they sometimes do you favors you know? Without asking them too. Things just happens coz of their existance. Haha. Thats why i luuff em'. In a non pedo way that is. Lol. I need to study moreee almost two days to tesstt. I actually studied bah which was a miracle. History for thirty mins was enough to kill me brain. But i feel so bad for d other subjects.i shall study you soon.. Just hope i aint lying to myself. Again.

when you're lyin' here in my arms, i'm findin' it hard to believe, we're in heaven. But i dont feel it.

2010-02-27T00:28:00.005+08:00

so i slept in d noon. Tumblred for bout four hours. Planned to study after physics tuition till late at night. Hmmm, so, it's twelve fourty four and my books remained untouch. Somebody please please tell me why should study and get good grades? Pls? And caught a rat today. Ew. Theres a white fat drain rat too but we caught its soulmate whch was grey. Seriously, i dint know there were albino drain rats. Its so white it blinds d blind. We dint kill the grey one though. My dad n mum left for kampuang n let me n my sis dispose of it. He was thinking drowning or let it under d sun. We did neither. We felt bad. So while thinking of how to dispose it, few hours later. It died. In the cage. Lol. It was a vicous rat. Tried to maul me i was taking a photo of it. Hmm. I guess thats what happened to my brain. Died. It needs to be revived. So yea Emeh, you must study today. Jia you. Oh and vadee, extrapolate your text. Thanks, amigo. Syonara n gudnite.

If i lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world? Darn.

2010-02-25T20:29:00.006+08:00

I just realize that i only know what i was doing after i've done it. And i felt i didn't do good and was fooling around. Darn. I feel like a turd. I could do better. Really. Its just me. I suck. Oh well. We'll see how this goes. Oh, i love Lee.i know he aint hot and all in american idol but his voice is just magical. Like when he sings, you suddenly feel like...even unicorns and fairies exist. And when he stops, then you come back to reality. Yep. Oh oh, i've been watching salad fingers in youtube. And for crying out loud, its not for kids. Its so...disturbing for cartoons to walk around and get turned on by rusty spoons. But it makes my day, thats why i keep watching the episodes. And yay! Charlie the unicorn 3 is out. Not that i watch non existance creatures created by 3 year olds. Pfffft. If there was an 'enter' button on fones, i could share interesting conversation bout my parents and cats. Oh well. Maybe later.

Open up your plans and then you're free. Look into your heart and you'll find love. I need plan.

2010-02-24T23:04:00.003+08:00

here i am again typing with a sad phone. Urgh. I can't believe that im lack of self motivation to study and unbelievebly and easily distracted. Darn. I was suppose to finish up sej but i realized i was balding when i felt my hair was thin. So i kept touching it until i fell a sleep and didn't feel like doin sej anymore. How sad. And next weeks test.. Darn. I need to be like Mirabel. I need a plan.. And actually doing it. I cant waste my time on talking to weirdos on the net. Devastating, i know. Oh, i watched american idol. Its a wonder that few of the first ones were good then later on bad. maybe they'll do that for drama again this year. Hmmm. Nitesy.

but its too soon to see if im happy in your hands. I'm unusually hard to hold on to. Devastated.

2010-02-19T02:00:00.008+08:00

I'm so devastated of such accusations in my life. I couldn't do anything but to search awesome stuff in tumblr till two in the morning.

whispers hello, i miss you quite terribly. coz we're gonna leave it to God.

2010-02-16T00:40:00.004+08:00

Ah. Happy CNY and belated Vday. Been a tiring week but i can manage. It's weird how your sister's friends leave later than your own. But I'm glad they came anyways. Glad everyone came. I love you guys. Never had such an open house with lotsa humans. oh, when we talk, no need to get so emotional. Gosh.... i love landay for constantly reminding me that everybody wants happiness. Nobody wants pain. But you can't have a rainbow, without a little bit of rain. oh, whatever will be will be. The futures arent ours to see, right? Unfortunately. I'm typing like this coz im using a phone. It's hard. Seriously. I can't even like do a paragraph. You know, coz there's no 'enter' on a phone. Yesh, kills your brain cells. Ttfn. Dream bout me.

You would not believe your eyes, if ten thousand fireflies lit up the world as i fall asleep. Which i am constantly doing.

2010-02-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

I think i need a break.

so i won't be updating much.
Kinda like hiatus-ing.

gosh its so freaking hard to type with a phone.

yes. Im typing and blogging with my sisters phone. Which is not easy. At freaking all.

i love the attention.
But i think i need to reblog again. I cant type like this.

so yea. I've been doing alot of stuffs. From school work to theatre stuff.

basically i've been keeping myself busy. Well.. Thats the first step in keeping yourself content and happy. For me la.

plus theres something wrong with my school.

i need a break.

but. At the same time. I dont.

Lookin' like a fool with your pants on the ground. How about face on the ground?

2010-01-19T00:59:00.006+08:00

all those other girls,well, they're beautiful, but would they write song for you?

What do need after failing two events in one day?
And repeatedly humiliated by hitting ur hips on that steal of horror numeral times when you used to do it so easily?
And not get to do an event that you ever so much wanted?
And get beaten by a 16 year old who turns 16 today?
And not get any of your crazy teacher who smiles like crap and has a head of a chihuahua work done?
And you have you wake up at 5AM today?

A hug.

Cuz everytime that I get around you I see the best of me inside your eyes, you make me smile. Gorgeous.

2010-01-18T00:12:00.003+08:00

Oh Crudes. I havent been finishing any of Tok's desires and wishes for the school magazine or the monthly newsletter but it shall be done. I promise.

I just wish I have all the time in the world.

I was being indecisive again. I was caught between whether or not I wanted to balik kampung or stay at home and finish up my crappy works. But hey, I wanted to see my aussie niece and cousins. So yea, I did, I figure I could get things done by today. Hopefully. And boy I had like lotsa fun with my cousins. Balik-ed because of family thing but went home same day at night though. Finally a decision that I didn't regretted so much :P

Plus I played Rock Band for the first time!! And it was fun. I was some what the "drummer" and just start hitting whatever they tell you to on the screen.

I sucked.

Bad.

The screen actually flashed FAILED infront of my eyes.

So yea, had a very happy Sunday. I feel very smiley. Except for the fact that I have to take care a bunch of kids during sports day today. Urgh. Speaking of sports, I need to ace my high jump and 400m hurdles and get over with it. It's just not my thing you know? I bet you can tell by the way I look. Ha.

Speaking of nieces and kids, i had like tons coming over to my house. My mum just loves kids you know? So there is currently now staying over my house. But this time its my nephew over my dad's side. They came from KL and fork,

he freaking bit my face. Bit. What a way to show me how landay feels like.

i'm watching you

sometimes you want to look serious but you just cant. coz you feel like laughing instead :)

and landay, i'm dieing to meet ur godma or watever she is to you.

I can't go any further than this. I want you so bad its my only wish. Blasted!

2010-01-11T22:28:00.003+08:00

Sports are curses I tell you. They think tall people could beat the crap of everyone else.
And
Minutes to midnight had never been so fast.
And when it does special days pass and unwanted days are soon to come.
Blasted!!
Hugoooo..ooo Hugo.. why are you leaving so fast?

And i'm sorry, this wasn't easy when i asked you, believe me,you never let go, but i let go. We probably did.

2010-01-06T23:37:00.002+08:00

Teacher Siska told us to write a horror story but me and Landay came up with something magical and it was one of the things that made the day less boring :)

The Tale Of The Tail

There was an old mansion in the middle of a cornfield. It is not only famous for its undying history, but also notorious for the amount of ferocious cats roaming in its magical building. It is said to be magical building. It is said to be magical because, as you enter; you can hear the purrs and the scratching of the cats against the walls.

The previous owner was said to be a former nun named Anne Jane. She became mad after the government banned her from growing corns in her cornfield and murdered all her innocent 28 felines. Now covered in fading pink and green paint, the building still stands tall and strong eventhough abandoned by its owner who passed away after swallowing a corn stick because she thought it was a sausage.

Now and then, a few cats will linger around the mansion grounds, making it their natural habitat. Sometimes, when people decide to lurk around the mansion grounds, they claim that an unsourced corn stick will fling against their head or one of the cats would maul them viciously. These claims are yet to be proved, but one things for sure --- once an owner, ALWAYS an owner.

Therefore, local residence conclude that it is not safe to enter the magical building or tear down because they think it is only right to preserve the interesting tale of the tailing cats. Get it, tale tail? Ah, Forget it.

End

Hahaha. Made Teacher Siska laugh for a moment there when she read it. Then she made Landay read it aloud to the class. Was suppose to be horror but yea, killed Teach Siska's objective for the day. Oh, this was only for fun yea? So don't take anything seriously..

Don't you just love us?

Kiss me down by the broken tree house,swing me upon its hanging tire. Sucky start.

2010-01-04T23:01:00.003+08:00

That was so uncool man. First day of school and already my skin's ripping off bad. Had to climb all the way to our old class which is like keziliiioonnn steps up. Sweated bad. Communicated with seriously annoying stubborn asses because they probably only could talk stupid. Teacher Tok was being such a.... ~~female dog~~ urgh.

Not a really a kick ass start.

But whateves.

Time will passsss.... fast fast.

Computer, stop being a moron and please let me upload my pics? Give back my photos while your at it.

i.want.to.learn.this.song

Oh, after what felt like forever, I finally went to check up my grillz today. And what a nice atmosphere of the new year in that crampy clinic. I mean, what could be more exciting then having the same room with a perverted asshole.

Perv some random naive girl customer

eh? sudah habis check gigi?

err, sudah...

sakit ka?

tidak juga bah.. hahahhahha

diorang ada inject ka?

tiada..bah tu

oh....eh moi, kau buat apa bah nie, kerja ka?

tidak la.. masi student, form 5 this year gawsh shes same age as me?!

oh, macam budak university oh, name kau?

Vivien

Oh saya spencer james

*shakes hand* ew

I thought they knew each other after they started introducing themselves. And the girl talked to him like he's this funny old man. After this little innocent conversation. The girl's dad came and they left. Few minutes later, the perv went up to the counter and asked the counter lady if she had Vivien's number. That is so disgusting. Of course the counter lady said no. In your face you old fat man. Then he was like "Ala, bapa dia datang bah, itula tidak sempat tanya number. Sayang!". Loser. What freaked me out was that he tried talking me to instead but I avoided eye contact. But he managed to ask me dumb questions, like am I here for a check up or not. Duh. Then for what? Leprechauns? Geez. Good thing I was with my kakak or else God knows what willl happen. She even told me that when I was in the check up room, the perv asked my kakak about me... ew. Like where was I studying..and what not. Freak. Good thing my kakak was awesome, coz she answered like "I dunno" to all the questions.

Note that I used brown as the perv cause its like the colour of dirt and shit indicating that he's a total jerkasorous.

And the fat old pervy guy was Spencer James. right?.

But when the nurse called his name was like... some Malay name like..geeez, i don't knoww.. Saiful Apek or something like that.

Talk about ew.

Sigh, I feel so unsafe oh. I don't like having experiences like these... It haunts me.

Oh well.

I hate it when I start to think what I want and I don't know what I want. itmakesmecry Don't you just hate it?

Till then.
oh man, ignorance is a torture after all.

No matter how many nights did you lay wide awake to the sound of the poison rain. Bring it on.

2010-01-04T00:43:00.004+08:00

Bring it on, biatch.

For you, Landay.

:( holding it in me

It may not be my weekend but its gonna be my year. A very new year.

2010-01-01T02:49:00.005+08:00

Firstly,

happy new year!!!!

secondly,

happy belated birthday to Nerd!!!

hahahahaha. don't kill me for this nerd. you know i love you. you're the best damn thing that ever happened to me and I hoped u loved your "surprise". Though, it kinda failed in so many ways.

So yea. Happy new year. Been a long long long year but damn, its already ending. But the saddest part is how I'm celebrating it. Stuck at home with sickness of various diseases and what not. Watched telly and just sipped few drinks. Lay down on the sofa and just continuously coughing. Actually, was suppose to balik kampung but for some reason, we didn't. Guess my mum's a lazyass and use my sickness as an excuse. Ahh well, going up to national park anyways.
So I hope this won't suck badly.

So there were many crappy and non-crappy stuff I endured during 2009. And some things just hit me along the way eh? So what I've discovered so far during that year? hmm

I realized I didn't really accomplished my resolutions
and saddest thing is I didn't try
good to know I wasn't the only one
found out that science subject sucks
took science subjects for granted
bonded with practical teachers
hated few pervy teachers
school bazaar was a joke
donated nonsense money to the school
suck at competitions
im not that bright after all
discovered other awesome talents of mine
got an award for it :D
made awesome friends
discovered ugly truths about other people
my class sucks because of the table positions
im in love with highwaist
and maybe belindas
i think i'm a spendaholic
damn
went to a nice resort on an island
which shared the same island as the pilaks did
period cramps screwed me up badly
thought tan hong ming was adorable
anime/lavi was like my love
kids love to hate me, i love them so much so dont worry :P
got stalked
got dragged into some hanky panky theater group
met more new losers
preferably new friends
i thought i got it but i guess i didn't
didn't cry as much as last year
laughed and smiled more then last year
hated the truth
loved the lies
realized i was an idiot after loving the lies
new crushes
was crushed by the crushes
ouch
facts that hit my head many times during Sermon
got into worship team
lived in a rental house full of ugly cats for half a year
new house seems great
finally used a heater after 16 years
loved new things
balding
i still wanna grow taller
hurt badly
confused
disobeyed
felt realllyyy bad about that
lied too much
another thing to be sad about
made a prayer group
did RR for the first time
i bet your getting bored of this
lost someone
losing someone now
found out true colors of own family members
disappointed my parents numeral times
got rewarded unexpectedly
when i'm expecting, i get disappointment
working as a damn photographer for two bloody sections
got more responsibilities
had to much fun in school
didn't study much
some what had owners
hung out with bloody and owners HAHAHAHA
many people are demanding photos from me
make-up make me itchy
you sure you wanna keep reading?
kept sinking down
got awesome encouragements
went to KL two times
saw people fly away
saw people come back
less stress than 2008
wait, screw that, maybe 2009 was bit streesy-er
magazines are shit
nerds rock
got mistaken for being a bloody Indian too many freaking damn times
got mistake me and sis are twins, eff.
tuitions are actually a waste of money
forgave but didn't forget
did random act of kindness
showed God's love
deciding about the future
and still is
trying to grow more God-like
still like you

Uh... i guess theres more but I don't seem to be able to type it down now at 3 AM in the morning. HAHA. And I'm coughing. Nyehhh Anyways, I have been reading my blog posts throughout the months of the year 2009 and boy, I had lotsa issues. But being able to go through that was just, wow. Haha.

And I will continue loving the memories I had. Continue loving my family and friends and the new and old ones. Muacks

OH, so this years 2010 RESOLUTIONS?

......

I'll get back on that plus photos next time.

Till then.
Urgh, I knw my new years suckes. Oh well.

Whats a partridge? and whats a pear tree? I don't know so please don't ask me but I can bet those are terrible gifts to get. Merry Christmas :)

2009-12-29T00:40:00.004+08:00

Oh, I was lost now am found :)

I have been a good girl this year aye? always been kan?

Well, guess December didn't crap that bad :) Surprisingly had a very very very good Christmas and the days after that were just superb. Hahaha. Especially today.. Today as in, 40 minutes ago. LOL.

From embarrassing myself on Christmas day, balik kampung, to opening gifts, mandi-ing sungai, and hanging out after a failed movie-watch, I guess my week was awesome. Haha.

But whats this? 8 more days to school and my work haven't been recovered yet. I shall get it to it ASAP. Really. :)

I was thinking posting all my 2009 awesome photos here later on. Haha. So beware.

I feel empty somehow, like I'm missing some other fun-part of me. i want my girls :(

anyways, i haven't go for computer test yet... Coz I don't want to go alone. Someone kawan me pleaseee.... and I havent gotten those belindas yet *ahem*

oh well, I still heart my Christmas <3
cola float smoothie plus hanging out with an annoying person who has d same name of a perfume makes me have sore throat *cough*

Till then. Continue missing me.

how can this happen to me? Jinx

2009-12-23T17:46:00.002+08:00

I am effing jinx this December

i accidentally and permanently deleted my folder.

EVERY SINGLE DOCUMENT AND WORK IS TOTALLY GONE.
magazine work, pictures of the past, memories, stories, omfg, my photoshop things, recordings, anime stuff. DAMN.

i found this recovery software on the net and i tried it, it could actually recover my things back. but, shit, i need to pay like few US dollars like 60 or something like that. Can someone hack for me? Omg, i gonna go cry for awhile.

Well go get your shovel and we'll dig a deep hole to bury the castle. Tralalalala

2009-12-23T01:52:00.003+08:00

Urgh. The shower heater is playing tricks on me again. I can't seem to get the temperature right.

This is sad, only after living for 16 years, I finally used a shower heater. And not even for 2 months or so, it broke -.- So I had to use my parents'. That is just so so so sad.

Anyways, been caroling and selling bears for few days now. And last night would probably be the last time. Yeaps. Now all whats left is Christmas. What everybodys been waiting for, hoped for, or maybe the way around. I havent bought everyone presents yet because I really don't know what to get you guys. Cept for my frens, the gifts from KL is YOUR CHRISTMAS GIFTS AS WELL.

Oh, and weirdly, not much of people I know I saw last night. Compared to the other nights, I saw Vadee, Alia, Leslie, Teacher Tok, yes, I saw my freaking SRM teacher with her destructive child, some kids... And the only person I saw was..... someone who has the name in one of the books in the Bible :P Seriously.

how dare you people deceive me.

Anyways, let us all see how this years Christmas will turn out eh? Lets see if those "Wants" will actually come true since you all know, the fat man in red and a flying reindeer with a bleeding nose doesn't exist.

Christmas is cominggg 2 more daysss

i hate it when chart pies are true, esp if it is not for school. -.-

tralalalalalallala~

'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down, Knocked me down. Dancing to the beat.

2009-12-22T00:06:00.002+08:00

Okay maybe it didn't really sucked but other than having an ugly monday morning. You know the night would be okay.

Cause we were dancing to the beat of Knock You Down for a dancing thingy that Frances choreographed for some sort of dance class. It was awesome. I love it though I suck bad. Will post up the video soon <3

Sigh. I miss dancing soooo much. IWANNADANCE again. Please :D
come to 1B tonite!

go ahead and tell me then.

Into a place where thoughts can bloom. Into a room where it's nine in the afternoon. Ngeh Monday mornings..

2009-12-21T10:58:00.006+08:00

I never like Monday mornings anyways.
Missed you guys and all but it really didn't make a difference.
Oh wells.

Christmas <3 I'm gonna look like Cinderella, 20 years freaking older..

I can't forget you, I know you want me to want you I want to. We're trying.

2009-12-19T00:04:00.010+08:00

SIERRA VADEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I LOVE YOUUUUUU

Oh what a tiring day eh?

So I was supposedly sell teddy bears at 1B from 12pm to like.. God knows when but I only manage to go at 7pm and help around :P Coz there were things to do at church then... So was pretty tiring la. Anyways, since I was so hot kan, Aunty Terri dragged me to carol with them instead. Yish. I shouldn't have wore white then :P It was too, attractive.

So after the first round of carol, there was this some, performances by kids. Cute oh them!! And then i saw... jeng jeng jeng... VADEE! How come didn't bring Joibi alang-alang?

XD So yea, she bought 1 teddy and I love you so much for that :D But her little sister was being racist and wanted the lighter bear. But Vadee was mean coz she liked black teddy bears.

And hey, what do you know? Its Darian's , Wendy's and Gazel's Birthday(actually yesterday but i'm only few mins late:P)!! Too many babies born on December. Tsk tsk :)

eee, my lil gazel cousin so cute ;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

***

THIS WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS!
well, one of them that is

AND THIS. but i rather prefer the other one :P

Oh i pray no one has the same size as me ><

If you love me kan, you will go to 1 Borneo at any of the nights from 18th to 24th and buy the teddy bears at only 15 ringgit. All money goes to charity :D But, if you go on the 20th and 22nd. I will be there.... Serving you :D

cute kan? got white and BLACK, i mean darker :)
theres purple too but it looks like a terung

Vadee is so weird. pfft.

See you there ^^

When did you ask,why did you ask for more than what a heart can give.With a taste made by your lips. -anthony's status :)

And I got the point that I should leave you alone but we both know that I'm not that strong. I can clearly see that. Pfft.

2009-12-15T21:46:00.004+08:00

ah. another ranty blog. How typical.

Okay. I have a feeling that December is not going to be a very merry month. It kicked start off being incredibly busy with some magazine work and what not.

Then the past started haunting me. Like literally effing annoy me.

I don't get why things are always coming up to bug me. Its like, all the things that I didn't want to happen(specific things, seriously), actually happen.

So what sucked? The whole week so far. The last time I remembered I was like, "happy" you might say, was like end of November or something. Now things is just slowly getting ugly. And I wish not to bring this until next year because then, I want to make few things first in my mind.

Ah eff. Today really didn't make things better. After having the most productive conversation till God knows when because I just wanted things to end things and make things straight, my mum woke both me and sister up like at 9 to clean up the previous house and then went shopping around 4pm.

And guess what I saw?

Belindas. The most awesome heels in the world.

If you've been stalking my blog, you will find these particular heels I've been posting up. So I saw exactly both of them in Maylana, Wisma Merdeka.

And it was high.

But no. I guess that would have to wait. Because my mum thinks I'm spoiled for putting a grumpy face for not owning such heels because she thought it was way too high for me.

Spoiled huh? That probably the last thing I want to be. Spoiled. Its not even in the list.
AND NEVER WILL.

Buts whats this? Now my mum is accusing me of being spoiled.

Oh how crappy can that be.

Not only some ~~people~~ things cant leave me alone, now my mums against me.

And my Christmas outfit was torn. Hmmm. Wonder what else would suck.

So yea, why don't the bad things leave me alone and invite what made me happy then come back in, eh? How bout that?

imissyouguys

All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes and every waves drags me to sea. Mmmhmm

2009-12-15T04:38:00.005+08:00

Well, been spending much time at the beach and enjoyed it. I'm glad that Buttz came.
Now everyone knows you by Buttz :D Thanks for harassing my wallpapers.

But the saddest thing is that everyone's getting together and had fun. And happy.

I really wanted to go to hobbycon. Ish. Got my Lavi oh! NO ONE TOLD ME MY LAVI WAS GOING TO BE THERE!! Stupid. It's not that I want to see local anime wannabes, just wanted to support my fav anime bah! And Bev's performance too. I'm sorry I missed it :(

I guess rotting in law wasn't so bad la. At least Eileen was there. An someone might be joining for test. Hmm. I wonder who la that so lazy XD

Oh wells.

Just hope things will be better now, though I'm having lots of doubts all the time.

i guess so.
I'm sorry

bet you didn't know that :P

Oh yea, pics, hmm. Soon. Why are you people away when I need you? :(

If you can't live without me, why aren't you dead yet? For now, I'll show you I can.

2009-12-11T01:51:00.006+08:00

My eyes are bleeding and tired. Urgh. Its the teddy bears I tell you. Teddy bears.

Let me see, so went out with a big group on Wednesday, around 11 of us? Consisted of awkward conversations, lost-of-focus moments, stress times, probably left-outs feelings, and.. GEEZ i don't know, mockeries?! I thought you people were nuns. Haha, next time, we gotta plan way better. Anyways, whatever the outcome was, I was definitely... Amused somehow. Haha. Guess better go in a little-er group?

The suckest part was that wishing you could legally drive in this freaking country. Coz SOME of us almost rotted in 1B coz there was no transport and we couldn't take the bloody shuttle coz SOME people had to rush to some practice. HAHA. I'm sorry I had to drag Nerd and Zaidah with me :)

So stress la going out.

But what matters is the thought. Though not all will think it was... Nvm. Anyways, I still do want to go out :P You know, I haven't bought belindas.

So we watched new moon. Urgh. At least I actually know what was going on not like Twilight. I didn't even get Twilight. Or maybe I was distracted while watching? :X Whatever. I don't know how to say it. Me and Tia just mocked all the way. And each time some glowing eyes comes out of the bush Kirane(i think) will say, DOMOKUN! Lol. Okay sure. Domokuns gonna eat Bellaaaa... Or save her. Pfft, what so great about her anyways? Shes so desperate and she kept on breathing hard like shes having asthma or something. But Jacob was ok la. I mean with his shirt off.. besides that hes just.. well... Weird. He'll transform into Domokun if you piss him off.

I haven't actually read the book but probably I won't bother to. I don't like the characters and the personalities in there. Urgh. I'm not sure if I'll got for Eclipes ( isn't that a candy or something?)

Sorry, I just had too.

Besides letting my soul feast upon Twilight and aching hours in 1B, I was devouring the awesome feeling of soft teddies..and guess where are we going to sell them?

1 BORNEOOO!!

iamsogoingtogetsickofthatplace

i don't know why people make stuf like this but i find it LOL worthy :D

heck yea did. XD

What's wrong with this picture?

i'll post the pics up soon.

Oh, bye Nerd :D

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter, As long as I'm laughin' with you. Out out out out!!

2009-12-08T15:35:00.006+08:00

Congrats to SPM-ers! Let's go out!!!!!!!!!!

I want to go Suriaaa, was suppose to go tonight but I'm going to 1B tomorrow. Too much going outs already :(

Oh wells.

click for largeeee

Oh I wish :P

read this from left to right.

another one

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

i say, i feel rather MOPish today, aye? doesn't that girl who never seen rocks before looks familiar?

Lets go out, ~~baby~~ bloody :)

You Be the Anchor That Keeps My Feet On The Ground, I'll Be The Wings That Keep Your Heart In The Clouds. Can it still be?

2009-12-06T01:34:00.010+08:00

I only realized that my hugging pillow wasn't with me at 2AM. i crept around and found it. Thank God, I finally can sleep. It smells goooooooddd. Oh yea.

Its pretty much stupid that people cry over songs. Even when it relates nothing to you or not. Youjustcry. Well, I'm kinda one of those people. Whatchu talking about? Dont bah. No, I'm not emo. The song very nice bah. Haha.

Well, some of the songs that usually tear up are well, apart from Christian songs, are Fall Out Boy songs. Yea, I'm a whimp and I love FOB, so sue me. The reason is pretty obvious, I love them so much. I'm a big fan of their meaning-less lyrics and awesome vocal. They do have meanings actually only not through the lyrics. You've gotta really dig in deep for meanings.

Anyways, its so sad that I heard they are taking a break for awhile. Like few years kinda awhile, Pfft. Sad oh me. PATD songs are almost similar to FOB only I just like them, not love. So though PATD broke up, well, not literally broke up, the band name is still PATD only now consists of 2 original band members while the other 2 decided to go to hell. Nah, they went do their own thing.

So, where am I getting? Atlas, I found a substitute. And surprisingly, their songs made me, cry. I don't usually cry over emo songs or songs in the radio kay? If tears comes out, that means I love them. No matter what kind of songs they sing. Nice oh. Their voice so sexy until I cry. I don't mind someone buying me their album. Support mah :)

So yea, its official.

I officially love Mayday Parade.

get out of my head bah u.

do continue

ididn'tknowbahcannottakepicturesincyber. i aint a nerd.

OH OH u wanna know what else makes me cry?
zoe's moving to johor bahru for good.
my son, cassieMan a.k.a Cassandra Chee Mei Ling(lol) turned sixteen yesterday
my child, which gender is undefined, Buttz aka Patricia Ling Sui Ying turns sixteen today.

oh morning, Jonathan ;P

'Cause I feel like such an insomniac,Why do I tire of counting sheep,When I'm far too tired to fall asleep. I want you to print my pages again :)

2009-12-04T01:52:00.005+08:00

OH MA GAWSH.

YOU DIDN'T NOT JUST PUKED ON ME, ASHER.

7 months old baby nephews are like big vending machines that automatically give you disgusting cans of mixed up digested food.

All the times we spilled our coffees and stayed out way too late. Eject ;)

2009-12-03T00:55:00.004+08:00

Have you ever felt being rejected and accepted at the same time?

Coz, I think, the cat does.

I meant the one that comes to my house and craves for food, you idiots.

You know, it brought a dead stinky rat at the front of our doorsteps on a fine Sunday just after church.

And my mom beat it up.

Well, not really beat it up. Just continuously swinging her hand towards the cat with an umbrella.

She missed of course. She wasn't wearing her glasses so that probably explains.

Poor thing. It probably was thinking " OH miaw! These humans would see how great I am
at catching rats"

The next thing it knows, whacks coming from my mum.

I would really appreciate if I could get a real holiday. I would love to sleep in. But I don't really get that nowadays. Since you know, SRM-ers have to wake up early and go to school to finish up mags. Yish.

But oh, for the Lord is gracious, 1B awaits me on the 9th. Can't wait to spend time with my multi racial "Friends". If you know what I mean :D

Its good to have someone to chat till late at night or until the morning dawn. And I love Nerd for doing so. Too bad her beloved in bed couldn't wait so she had to leave early. Aw, I need people to talk to at 3AM in the morning. I get abit cranky at these times.

me: *typing and was reading funny blog post* omg.. funny oh
me: why oh like that? hahahahah! *laughs
me: omg, eeee...*laughs"

my sister stares at me and says

sis: bah, she's talking to herself.

gladly answers herself

sis: I know.

naming thousands of students is not fun.

SRM night next year? That means I can go for carol :)

Well, nite. May I dream of Ia.. I mean, Belindas.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity. I mean it.

2009-11-28T00:52:00.007+08:00

WOOOHHHHOOOOO!!! I'm still awake y'all! And its kinda late. BWAHA.

Well, since it was holiday yesterday so did quite alot of stuff. Did some face stuff with Dee, shopped with ma mamah and ma sis. Then choir-ed. Hehe.

Yea. Gonna choir-ing at 1B at the 22nd Dec 09 for the Lord!! EH? 22nd Dec? Sounds familiar eh?

Sigh.

Its the SRM night.

Well, we'll see if I can make it for both. Gonna do lil some magic now :D

Anywaysssss, I'm kinda feeling rather ecstatic now. And my sis and I were talking about how much I was kuyak-ed or moments that were rather, "Random" or "Amusing" as they call it. So I was thinking why not share it eh? I bet you guys would be so thrilled!! If you don't get it then nevermind. Just laugh along eh?

So there was once, I kuyak-ed myself.. In front of my cousin.. It was stupid I guess. We were having some dinner. Family stuff. So all the cousins and the delightful delinquents were running around one of my aunts house. Wait, sorry. There werent any kids. Only those older cousins. So yea, we were eating and I was thirsty, so I was like HEY! Why not grab a glass of that red stuff in that jug over there. So I did. Listening to my conscious, i grabbed a glass and at the same time one of my cousin was there too. Picking up a glass, she probably was feeling thirsty too. So, before I did anything stupid( i tend to embarrass myself when Im thirsty) she asked, "Whats this oh?" as she pointed to the jug containing the red liquid. Without hesitation(Seriously) i said " Your mom". Then I realized something extremely not so awesome. Her mum kinda passed away 2 months ago aka my aunt. Aha, so instead of doing something stupid, I said something stupid. Great. Good thing she was like "ISH," then, to cover up my.. Stupidity, I said " Uh, I really don't know bah" picks up the jug and started sniffing the liquid. Good thing she laughed. So I assumed she was FINE.

Yea... Kinda bad and awkward moment I had with myself there. I kept saying stupid to myself. NYAHA. Anyways, another time was when I was playing Restaurant City in facebook. Its just a game I play when I have nothing else better to do. So yala, Basically you can invade other people's restaurant and "Trade" ingredients with that person. So I remembered invading into Nerd's restaurant. So I planned on trading stuff with her. So I checked her stuff la, what I need from her and what I don't from me. So I was running through the list of ingredients when I was like "What the heck? Buruk la her one, nothing I need oso. NOTHING WAN! Stupid. Ish" I was all in my pissy mode and my sister said. " Uh, Emery, thats your ingredients." Damn it. I felt stupid. So I scrolled up a little, then wala, only then i saw Nerd's list of ingredients.

Well, theres more but yea. I think its better live, you know? HAHA.

Btw, I love having random conversations with my sister. Shes religious I can tell.

This conversation took place long time ago.

emerlay sis ariel

so, should I go for install?

Whats that?
Interact bah.

Eee, why? Only ditsy girls go..
So bad. Dont bah.
Go next year la.

Ya kan. Better go. But I have no boobs.
What for want boobs?
So look nice la.
Pray.

Lol. Don't you just love your sister? Speaking of sisters, she was being random yesterday.

She liked how Beyonce jiggles her ass and guys with muscle man boobs jiggled their man boobs. And now she started liking how santa jiggled his tummy when laughing. Weird. I wonder what else that will entertain her with jiggly stuff.

So yeaaaa.. I have nothing else to blog about at 1.30Am ya know. So pardon me for having such a lame post up.

Well, since I have no other things I will spam this post with pictures with beautiful people and pictures. Good luck.

found it at some blog shop, Mezzanine? Rm 79 or was it 80?

Rm79

wohoo. Constance Jablonski with a top i so love. I'm suddenly into those big neck top.

Eniko Mihalik meet world. World, meet a someone who looks gorgeous eventhough candid.

Frida Gustavsson meet Nerd. Nerd, meet your not so average Freeda.

Hanna Gaby Odiele. Hmm, nice highwaist can I have it? Maybe heels? *hint* Or legs?

Lindsay Ellingson, do you know your thighs are the same size as your shank? I love your style though.

Lui Wen
please tell me you can spot the awesome heels?

Skye Stracke
or maybe the highwaist dress/skirt?

okay these models just freak me out. Just imagine on your way to yayasan sabah and you spot two skinny girls sitting on that thing that pilaks had probably peed on.

well said and done, granma

this is probably your dream come true, Landay.

Speaking of green, when me, mum and sis went for shopping yesterday at parkson, found loads of green, pink , and blue stuff. Its like those sets you know? And when we were on our way back home, we bought lots of stuff but the main thing we went shopping for was to buy a new keyboard for the computer. Which we had long forgotten. So I shall post the lovely photos up when we actually remember to buy one.

Till then.

Cuz when you're fifteen, somebody tells you they love you,You're gonna believe them. No way! Are you stupid?

2009-11-25T13:26:00.005+08:00

I guess I was and still is.

Since I'm currently moving into my new house, my Streamyx haven't fully been fixed in yet. So no house phone, No internet, Boo-hoo. But thanks for my mum's laptop, I'm stealing other people's wireless now. Bwahaha. For now that is. I think the TM people are getting pissed that we keep bugging them to install our Streamyx so many times.

My life seems to revolve around songs nowadays especially if it relates. Coz everything seems to become hectic again. My brain just lost its juice of thinking straight and I really feel like not going through any crappy stuff knowing it just ended.

So far, I didn't get normal holidays. The first week of holiday, the SRM-ers had to go back to school to finish off the magazine. Then, Tokkie had me and Landay in-charge of the layouts and what not. Now, I have to organize the SRM night. Its open btw, so if you guys wanna come, do tell me. Its On the 22nd Dec 09.

I'm doing fine with all of this crap on me. I just need to be left alone and I'm going to continue to finish off what I've started. Continuing the journey of moving forward. Because I've worked so hard to get up to this point and asking me to turn back for awhile is abit too late. Nothing comes easily and you get nothing even if you're 5 minutes late. Blaming me for making unexpected decision is quite unreasonable right? I'm not saying no or yes. It's because I really don't know. But all I know is that I want to continue what I've started. And when we listen to life by ear, chances are we might start over. I do hope we do. For now, just let me keep on moving forward.

And now I would like to feature Mir's lovely sonnet :)

Sonnet 16

You came and left with footprints in my heart,
The memory of us is not enough,
On that fateful day when we grew apart,
Living through life as it is just grew tough.

Mum says it’s kind of like catching a cold,
One minute I’m fine with the circumstance,
One minute I’m sick as a man who’s old,
All this emotions makes me feel so tense.

But now I am no longer a victim,
I can do away with that gripping fear,
And never breathe a word about boredom,
And fill the relentless minute my dear.

The next time we meet from you I’m hoping,
To hear,”congrats on the new beginning. ”

By ,
Bervet’s darling, Mirable’ XD

My life's so sad I have to steal people's pictures from their blog to make my post look longer. It's okay, I know u still love me kan?

Oh, and somebody please tell my kakak that my baby photos are not for the workers to be entertained with?

Thank you XD

Cause when I leave for the night, I ain’t coming back. But I did and so did you.

2009-11-14T00:53:00.004+08:00

I miss KL so much I wanna go back and buy a pair of that Belindas.

Yes, I label the materials that I want with the person's name who actually have them. HAHA.

You don't need to know who Belinda is (maybe some of you do) but lets just say they are a pair of heels that i want so much. It was all over KL but I didn't buy any of them, instead I accidentally bought a different pair of heels.

Darn to the Himalayas.

So yea, my four days in KL seemed like it was only a day or so. SO short I know, but the main reason we actually went there because my sister had some appointment to go to at the hospital there. What did that building called again.. Institut Jantung Malaysia? Some weird heartsy-fartsy hospital la. With pretty artsy fartsy arts.

The first day we didn't do much except, shopping. Reached Coronade( double R?) Hotel around 2 Pm ish. Slept until 4pm ish then crossed over to Sungei Wang Mall to shop till like few hours. I can't believe they close so early, like 10PM? PFFT.

Anyways, the next day, which was appointment day for Ariel, we got punked by the cab driver.. Darn you. 30 bucks to the hospital from hotel then when we got back to the hotel using some normal cab we found, it was only 20 bucks. -.- What gives? So yea, that good for nothing hospital killed my brain cells. We went there around 8AM (cause it was 8AM, and we were punctual ~~Malaysians~~ Sabahans) and only went in to see the doctor at what? 11.55AM?! yea, waited so long. There was no seat. Some people were like, sleeping on the floor? I had to stand, pee, sit, stand and go pee again. No, my bladder is fine. Its just an excuse to move around. At least in the bathroom you can sit for a few minutes and enjoy that particular moment.

And , NO.

My sister was not there for an operation.

No, she didn't faint there or whatever.

Just a simple check-up or review about how her condition is doing. And she has to come back next year somewhere in Feb. I don't think I'm joining this time.

After the horrible hours and numeral of old ladies and men asked if me and sister were twins, ( i just don't see it, do you?) we finally went back to the hotel. Ate lunch somewhere I forgot, then went dinner with my Gong Gong and Poh Poh, and some other relatives which doesn't speak English. They only speak Cantonese or Hakka or Melay. Sad. The saddest part again was that one of them looks like Habibi. EEE.

Did more shopping with Ah Ling after that, another non speaking English cousin and my mum bought her a pair of sandals in One Utama, it was her birthday. The Belindas there were awesome but my ugly big foot is so big, they didn't have any size for me.

The next day consists of me, sis and mum. Real shopping begins in Mid Valley. Bought my first and ever high waist dress in Pink Evil's Supermarket crap.. geez they give weird names for their shops. And yalooo bought more cheap sale discounted crap for myself and people. I even saw a DOMOKUN bag. INI LA. Didn't buy cause it was too gay for me. And it was like bag pack. If it was sling or handbag i don't mind. But bag pack? Maybe for my kids but probably they will think that their mum is an embarrassment giving them hash browns that eat you. As a bag. Who knows, I might even cross dress them.

Same day, went dinner with Tatum. My cousin(mum's side, speaks English and more bond) who studies in UIM brought us to a restaurant in some small pekan in Shah Alam. I feel weird in Shah Alam. People stares at youuu.. Omgg.. Like they wanna eat chew up.

One AWESOME thing was that my sister left her handphone in the cab. Apart from her being screwed by my dad for awhile through my mums phone, the awesome part was that the taxi man actually drove all the way back to give it back after a few hours :D What a kind old MAN. Well, he wasn't that old. But yea, he was nice. And you don't find that alot in KL. I think Landay would find him hot. Since he has a magical ring. A big fake one that is.

On the last day, we woke up slightly early cause we wanna make a quick shopping over at Sungei Wang. There, I finally bought Zaidah and Nerd something :D Last minute bah, so Nerd, if it doesn't fit, make yourself more fatter. Nice that. And Zaidah, uh, I love you.

Bwahah. Early, Christmas gifts for my darlings.

After that, left the hotel around 12PM ish and went to the airport. Mum bought a brooch in the airport. EXPENSIVE O. She doesn't even need that gold metal thing. I mean, look at my teeth.

So yea, short kan? Even my post is so short. How sad. SIGH. OH well, when fate brings, I want to go again. And maybe Genting again. Its fun when you bring friends you know? To places like these.

So yea, Got screwed cause went back late just now. Dee brought me out to you know, buy something for someone who is going to be extremely old soon.

Great just great. And I thought I could sleep in next week. Hells just about to break lose when Tok Fen Fen summons you to come to school for the whole of next week.

Oh, good luckies to you darlings who will be sitting for SPM.

Pictures? Do even want to see them?

Whenever you say you're always gonna love me, I say I told you so. Fly away.

2009-11-07T00:15:00.005+08:00

Theres too many people leaving. I can't stand it.

I went to Aunt Supang's farewell dinner at 4 Seasons and guess what, I was actually crying in the inside. I want Zoe to keep coming back to Sabah and I want Ben to stay. Haha.

Anyways, the suckiest part of all was to be surrounded by kids. I can't really stand it. Being abused by the kids and letting them slapping me and pushing me around. URGH.

I have a feeling God was testing my patience.

Better yet, was giving me a chance to actually be patient.

But I rather be stuck in a room full of progeriazed people drooling over me. It would be much better.

At least they will only look disturbing and crave for your body parts instead of actually bruising it.

Oh well, I'm going away anyways. Going to KL! On the 9th but I shall be back on the 12th. So to all you marching people, good luck. Sorry that I can't be there. You know, since I mean so much to you guys!

Shopping awaits!

KIRANE finally gave me her arts. Ini la :) I was expecting more but it's okay la.

you know you're not alone.
dont be emo :)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

You were hanging in the corner with your five bestfriends. You heard that I was trouble but you couldn't resist. Couldn't resist taking my picture eh?

2009-10-31T00:03:00.011+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
and good morning as well :)

rawr.

Uh. To tell you the truth, I don't like my picture to be taken. Really. I mean, I like to keep all the good memories and all but sneaking up people like that just to take horrible pictures is so UNAWESOME

I mean, not that I've done it million of times. Pfft.

But hey, taking a photo with my face in it needs to be flawless okay? It pays for a pretty face XD And hope dumbasses like SOMEBODY would stop snapping photos during tuition.

Speaking of education, I think I'm going to miss tuition. I mean its fun going to tuition. Physics especially.. Not Add maths thought. I think I'm glad I don't have to go to addmaths again. Sorry Josh, but you're that annoying.

Still in the education part, I'm so disappointed oh. Remember that stupid post which I said I wanted to get the English throne? That means if I get the highest mark for the English subject for my End Year Exam, I would get money. LOL. An award.

But sadly, lets just say that dream just shattered today after I got back my result..

Do i feel beaten down? Hell no. I will show u smartasses what am I capable of! I shall get that throne. RAWR. Next year that is.

But I'm glad Landay almost got what she wanted so much. Which is to get best in Literature. She got beaten by only 1 mark and Teacher Loh, who acts like an 8 year old on a sugar rush, refused to give extra marks. I heard she begged hard, but only got bruises by that weird teacher's beatings. Yes, she hits you. HARD.

:) Whatever, Landay. We're only in it for the money right? We can try harder next year. I'm proud of you girl.

Apart from results, guess what? I'M IN INTERACT!

Nah, I'm just kidding. You know the people who does the school magazine and which the students barely appreciate them working their ass off it? Yeap, I'm in that. And guess who got Editor? Landay! Hahaha. I got in Photographer Depart. Sama lah kita, Sul!
Great, its our turn to get stressed out next year with the magazine. And we are probably going to have a dinner for it. Don't know if its open to the public though. I mean, who notice these nerds who works on the magazine right? I dare you to tell me what SRM stands for :)

Uh. great. Gonna act again for some skit on Nov 5 about some Malaysian thingy. Sigh. An actress life. lol.

Going to for a Creative Writing workshop later on. This is it, I tell you. I'm getting ready for next year. I gonna do it hot and heavy. Ew.

OMG. There was an Indian guy who kept calling me of his own kind.

Oh wait, its just that stupid Satya.

Anyways, music, its kinda annoying that only now people know All Time Low. I've been listening to them for the past 2 months. Kan, Darian?

Oh, my voice is sexy. This is all Landay's fault with her low immunity. Getting sick sucks.

So I better hit the hay if I want to go the workshop.

Don't want to lose to HER again do we?

my awesome costume for Halloween. Its sexy and its scary.I'm gonna wear this to the workshop.
or maybe I could just dress up as Proggy. She scares the hella out of everyone anyways.

nite.

As i faced the crowd, I think that keeping this up could be dangerous. It happened again.

2009-10-25T21:54:00.004+08:00

Well this sucks.

Can someone make you love and hate them at the same time? I don't like it. I don't like it at all. I HATE IT. ~~i hate you~~

Only time will let this pass.

liked you alot, but..argh.

next year. i promise.

Hey there one in a million, you put life into motion. Yes you do :)

2009-10-19T20:39:00.003+08:00

I TOLD YOU.

All the Ians are either hot, cute or awesome.

Show me an Ian which isn't :)

study girl. physics awaits. 1 borneo, after exams and SPM.

But you're neither a friend or foe though I can't seem to let you go. One thing that I still know that you're keeping me down. Dorky week.

2009-10-18T23:11:00.008+08:00

ah. what a week. what a week.

Looks like I 've been enjoying my weekend despite of exam week. I mean, who studies for excel right? I know I'm gonna fail add maths, but as Darian said, this is the honey moon year. HAHAR. So I'm gonna fail at first then study harder next year.

Nah, I'm just kidding, I'll TRY not to fail :)

So far, exams been a mean ass. But lets not talk about that. Had the Greater Faith Conference and WOW! It was awesome. Haha. Spiritually that is. Abit scary but it was great la. It was a 3 days thing and I had to do recording on Saturday morning. I almost fell asleep because it was tiring :( I was listening, promise! Haha. Its a great conference where everyone learns to keep up their faith in the Lord and how to handle situations where your faith is deeply challenged. Yeap.

Besides the awesome conference, Saturday was abit rushy for me. No, didn't go for tuition. Ew. It was Dpavali so no tuition. BUT, had an open house.. Satya's open house :P Haha, I rushed to Landay's house(to go to Satyas) straight away from church. Dropped by my house for awhile to get changed la. So reached around 2pm, the food was utterly spicy. It was Indian food.. Never had in my life.. SINCE I'M NOT AN INDIAN. There, I was teased. It always me, teased for being a freakin Indian... -.- STUPID.

Being anti social with Landay for awhile then trashed Satya's room. We made that place into a cheap brothel. HAHA! It was all Adam's idea. LOL. And his delusional sister, Natarsha. Took photos and family photo. family photo inspired by Patrick Chong's family photos with the youths in Starbucks :P Only this time, the photographer sucks a million vacuums which was Hugo. After photo taking, everyone just seem to harass each other mentally, physically and emotionally.

Went back and attended the greater faith conference with family at night. Oh, saw Lily and Hugo ( yes the sucky photographer). Only this time, Hugo looked like he wanted to vomit. Reminded me when the time Landay was "possessed" during camp. Yea, scared me looking at his face. And his sister, Lily, kept dragging him around. LOL. Few minutes later, I think they went home due to his condition. HAHA. I feel bad suddenly calling him a bad photographer. Must be the food during Satya's open house.

Anyways, during faith conference, Josh and few other went to Marina to study. WTF?! Who studies man. He wanted to drag me along but uh.. NO. Study History and Physics? With him? Bad move. Haha. So I refused a devil trap.

Thats about it, today was abit tiring. Recorded few sermons again then went home and "studied" History since its tomorrow. Didn't see Hugo though, so I'm guessing hes not well yet. Prayers!

Oh, DEANNA'S graduation party!! CONGRATULATIONS dear :) Hope you'll do great things with your passion. I didn't go for the party though. Exam :(

HAHAHAHA!!! Sitting down: Natarsha Satya Nat Adam, and Kid
Me and Landay standing up

The extended family members from aunties and nieces, LOL. I don't knw their names but one thing i know that we're all multiracial!

AWWW. I love my family. LOL. as u can see, the photographer suddenly appears. HUGO! LOL. new comer to skyliner as well.

edited by me.

Prayer meetings every Friday. Join. 6.15AM, 4st

Nite :)

maybe I wanna do what bunnies do with you, if you know what I mean . English throne?

2009-10-08T23:42:00.009+08:00

OMG.

Ngeh. I feel free. For now. Then back on Monday its hell again. My exams are killing me. I can barely open the book and study. all of this is going to end is on the 28th of october. Oh gosh. Move time. MOVE.

I sat for English papers today. I freaked. Like real bad. You don't know how much I want this awesome crap. You don't know how much I WANT IT TO BE MINE!! Haha. I had problems picking what essay to write okay. It was like,

1. Best day of my life
2.Recycling crap
3.Neighbours
4. Start your story with "I was confuse and something emo.."
5. An ideal Parent

Which one did u think i choose? :P I'll give u a candy if you're correct. :D

Anyways, I wrote crap though. I wished I could do better. LIKE REALLY GOOD. Like beat the crap out of the smart asses in my class. But it felt like I didn't. URGH. But it all paid off with Deanna's manicure. She did my nails today. And my toe nails. OMG. I love it :D And you know what rocks? It was free :D She needed someone to practice her manicure skills with and I was the lucky one. Wanna guess what colour it is??? Don't you just love guessing stuff? I have to remove them by Monday though. Ish.

I'm finally going to my first Open House at Nini's tomorrow and maybe Satya's one too. Haha :) We'll see.

Do you feel gay today? This song is sooo cute. Suitable for happy and gay people.

or maybe feeling slightly towards the emo side?

i taught my sis photoshop few days ago. oh they are a couple of beauties. this was photoshoped btw :P if you can tell la.

Oh btw, I know its late and all but thanks for the Birthday Wish and cakes. Had like 5 different cakes to devour upon. Thanks! Love you lots.
~~I've been posting certain blogposts somewhere else.~~

but nothing beats losing you.

She could be money, cars, fear of the dark, Your best friends are just strangers in bars. Wants and Needs.

2009-09-17T23:37:00.013+08:00

It's good to see that everyone learn to be on hiatus because of me. :D

This is just to let you people know what I've been craving so far. I might even make your life easier in what to get me. Ahem*

ok i drew this..and coloured XD

don't like the shoes

love the whole thing

love the lower part only

i love EVERYTHING!!!
buy me this and i'll love you.

this is cute. lose the frekishly stripes la.

this is gonna be the next big thing. to hell with the gladiators.

eh.. but this is awesome though. crazy man :P

this baby :D

Well, that was basically the main things that I want. LOL.

These are the rest.

>Laptop
>A place to store my musicssss.. Phone is getting laggy.
>Anime DVDs. LOL.
>Anything that looks good on me.

Speaking of materials, went shopping today and hung out with Zoe, Jo and Edward(no, its not the weird vampire). Breakfasted at Lintas with mum and sis first and then fell in love with this small boutique because of its discounts and clothes. Bought a dress :P Sorry, I can't help it. Then Zoe picked me up and went to 1B to watch The Ugly Truth.

AWESOME SHOW.
Though, it men are still complicated though they claim they are simple. Haha.

Oh, guess who joined us?
~~SATYA~~

Hee. Nite. I mean morning. Its practically... 4am of 24th september.

no. you dint say that.

You were talking to her but messin' with me. Baby tell me now, how you love me now? Somebody please tell me that everything is going to be okay.

2009-09-13T22:02:00.017+08:00

I had to urge to update. So forgive me.

I don't and probably never will understand girls who let themselves be used. I mean that is just pure stupid. Everyone deserves to be loved by someone. Deserves to be loved 100%. If that person is so desperate for love, they don't care about anythings else except being with person they love. They rather love that person and be with that person eventhough that person won't surely love them back. I mean, probably because they have problems that I don't know but they have to realize that.. they are making a fool of themselves.

Anyways,
I had a great time today. Weekends are the most awesome days because my head would be completely distracted by other things and I have time to be with the Lord. Week days are all fcked up. Not only school bores me but being in my room makes me sulk in sadness or I'll grow more eyebags.

So what I did today was abit of banners for the event on 16th of September. My hand ached. I actually LOVED my banners because it was the church's and it was so colorful^^ BUT, it was very heavy. And the other was longer than the other one. SO it was cacat. But pretty and very nice. But I changed banners in the end. Because my hand ached badly. So I used the old ones. Damn :(

And I whacked my darling Val with banners. on the face. Im very very vveryyy sorry darling! I didn't mean to. She spotted me bah doing mistakes(because I love raging her) so she started approaching me like wanna scold me la. SO i said to her

"EEh, what you doing here? Go away eh. Later you kena whacked"

She smiled evilly and wanted to leave. Then, WHACK!!

"OOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHH" Everyone said. Then started blaming me for hitting their banner instructor. I seriously did NOT mean it. I warned her already kan? Haha.

But Roland (I'M TALLER THAN HIM AND HE'S 17!!) was making me feel bad all the way. He started whacking people and said " Eh, not my fault ah, I learn it from her" *points me* Stupid bah him that. But everyone looked like they had fun.

I actually joined banners last year. We failed to perform due to heavy rain. It was at the Merdeka Padang. This year, its at the Sutera Habour Tennis Court. Just incase it rains again :) Though it rained last year, it was still an awesome event. I loved the rain at that moment somehow. But it was also a sad to remember it now. So doing banners now really bring back alot of memories from last year.

So, ANYONE WHO WANTS TO JOIN COME :) 16TH OF SEPTEMBER AT THE SUTERA HOBOUR TENNIS COURT. darn, i forgot the time. its for the non-muslims though.

I had to go home early though coz I had to rush to City Mall for the trainee teachers farewell party. Me, Nerd and Buttz realized that we had no present for them when we reached Pizza Hut. I shouted (again, I could not help myself from being embarrassed) because I had no present. So we left Pizza Hut and hunt for PRESENT! That took about 30 minutes? We rushed like idiots. Up and down and circles finding presents. But atlas, we found keychains! Awesome ones. Bought cards and bought a pen! PINKKK color! I mean, whtf? Pfft. So we went back at pizza hunt said hi to the lovely trainee teachers.

And these are the wonderful trainee teachers (except Bong) that was about to leave us :(

Wong-
the one who keeps calling me Emily and bugs me from the first day she taught my class. Teaches Physics and Modern Maths. I know I've been ranting about her but seeing her leave now somehow makes me sad. I really like her actually. It was fun making her pissed. But I probably prefer her teaching us. I am going to miss the moments sleeping in her class. I finally made her proud by acing Physics. I think the last test I got 30 something (aka FAILED). Recently, I passed. I got 73%. :P

Houng-
The first day she came and teach us she had a look " Why am I even in this hell hole" Like those no life type. I THOUGHT. But after being with her after some time and teaching us. She's actually a cool person to b with :)

Bong-
She was never invited to the farewell party but who gives a damn. HAHA. She never taught our class so our bond wasn't that close. She was mean in Perdana Camp. She kept slapping Landay to keep her awake in her possessed moments. Ah, but whatever. She might be a great person though.

So yea, had a great time with them. My class and the next door class all came. After that, we went jalan2 with the teachers, well, only me, buttz, nerd, sul and Seri went bringing them around. I had a curfew bah so I asked teacher Huong to send me back and she said ok. HAHA. I bought a dress for my sister btw. For her birthday tomorrow.

So teacher Huong sent me home! WEEEE. Arrived safelt and my sister saw the bag to her present and she kept wanting to see it but I shooed her away :) And teacher Huong really loves Kuma Kuma.

Everything what I had today, reminded me of a certain someone. From the banners to City Mall, Pizza hut(and Giant) and the Kuma Kumas in teacher Huong car. I'm trying my hard to toss it away but it'll probably takes time. Fvck the time.

Pics.

Pizza Hut scene *sigh
Sometimes I wonder kan, Why pizza hut?

TEACHER HUONG and me

TEACHER WONG and me

TEACHER BONG and me. Ew. Lols. No bah.

AH LIEN!!! NICE KAN?

GROUP PICTURE!!

Wong and the BONGawan. So cute la.

Huong's blue kancil that took us 10 minutes to find. That is long.

Teacher driving :)

She has these stuff all over her car *sigh

Yes teachers text with their phone while driving. Typical Malaysian.

Last pic before I go..

Wong :)

Banner time~ Jie Phy, Me and Jess

Jie Phy and me. Leaving oh her. Shes leaving on the 10th of October I think.

Eh, put up more pics next time la.

YOU think only you guys kah can post up nice quotes?! Darn, I'm bad at this aren't I ?.Shut up.

i'll probably keep telling myself this over and over again.

these things r partially awesome.

Yeap. Thats all. I wanna watch Up, The Final Destination and The ugly truth. Someone, please bring me eh. :)

Urgh. Watch License For Marriage. Download it or something. Buy the DVD. Nice movie.

Nite.

Look at this photograph, everytime I do it makes me laugh.Because it bothers me.

2009-09-04T22:52:00.010+08:00

Its kind of surprising that the Perv said this, in Melay of course but I'm just gonna translate it,

"Of all the love (relationship) you will ever go through, nothing beats the FIRST love"

Is this even true? It got me thinking for awhile. I was happy but sad at the same time. But it doesn't matter anymore I guess. I won't let the sayings of a Perv affect me.

Anyways, just wanted to tell you that I do CARE and I do LOVE you, Nerd.
Not that this is going anywhere wrong or anything.

Whatever happened,I'm truly sorry that I acted like nothing was happening. Whatever affected you in any way, well, I 'm sorry that I barely noticed it. I might not even tried to cheer you up but whatever, now that you're happy I'm happy now. It just scares me to death if we'll never have each other (as with Landay, Buttz and the rest) because if my world falls who else will I have? You guys la... So not only I depend on God but I also have what He has given to me, which is you guys. So whatever misunderstandings we will ever have, we SHALL and WILL BE honest to each other. The truth might hurt but at least we won't go through it alone. So yea, promise never to be EMO without telling any one of us WHY. Coz if you don't, I don't know if I could survive without having you guys.

So who ever had been there for me.

You guys are the best!

Its probably the reason why I blogged although I said I would be on hiatus.

So yea, since I'm already blogging why not I just crap about things that been a bother.

I'm on games this Sat and I'm freaking out because I dont have any so far.

I can't sing the song It's All About You correctly even though Melvyn already "taught" me a few time. I'm singing this Sat btw.

I dont know whether Ann Atlethetia is playing with me or not me by telling me that some ex Lasalle dude is going to talk to me about acting in some play.

Satya is total douche bag. He should get a life.
If you are reading this, which I doubt it, I WILL NOT and NEVER sit next to you for your sake or for your geeky friend Ian sake just to save your sorry ass. Good luck trying to drag me.

I think I'm going to be an E-Shopaholic. Save me.

So yea, hope things would eventually work out. Ah heck. I just hope everything will be OK! I feel like changing blogskin ~

Hee~ Toddles.